food creations

sometimes, i indulge in the creative process through collaging, sometimes through painting, through clay, or rearranging my apartment. sometimes, my creativity comes out through the food i make.

this evening, while visiting my mom in Connecticut, i made the yummiest pizza i've made yet. it was a pre-mixed herbed pizza dough from Trader Joe's (baked a bit first, then drizzled with olive oil before adding ingredients), chicken apple sausage, sundried tomatoes, spinach, mixed gourmet mushrooms, fresh garlic, fresh mozzarella, and a light sprinkling of parmesan and romano cheeses (just to give it a kick). made the crust thin and baked it till it was golden on the bottom and the cheese was melty, bubbly, and golden on top.

i should be a pizza chef...that's all i have to say!

a cosmic joke on humankind/a giant universal tennis match

Painting by my brother-in-law Oren Goppert

why is it that, whenever an emotional "snafoo" occurs between two people, being ready to apologize for certain behavior and being able to accept an apology never quite line up? it feels like a big joke that the universe is playing us...like the pain of the ordeal that we originally went through wasn't enough, the universe needs to get that last little jab in once we have come to terms with our own junk and are trying to make peace with the one(s) we hurt. ridiculous i say, just plain ridiculous!

i got to the point where i had grown enough to realize that i needed to apologize, i formulated and executed a sincere and heartfelt apology, and now i have to be ok with simply having said my peace...? no acknowledgment or acceptance from the apologized-to-party? ugh...people are just too confusing; why was i ever interested in psychology?

on the other hand, i keep trying to "let go of" someone from my past, but every time i'm just about to the point where this person stops showing up on my radar, something happens that pulls this person back into focus...an email/a dream/a facebook post.

my friend Sari experienced the same thing recently and this is what she had to say on the matter, "You bounce thoughts out into the universe and eventually it bounces them back to you... It's like a giant universal tennis match."

how ironic that zero points in tennis is called "love."

mood collage

Weird mood song of the moment...

Best of You by the Foo Fighters

i've got another confession to make
i'm your fool
everyone's got their chains to break
holding you
were you born to resist or be abused?
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

are you gone and on to someone new?
i needed somewhere to hang my head
without your noose
you gave me something that i didn't have
but had no use
i was too weak to give in
too strong to lose
my heart is under arrest again
but i break loose
my head is giving me life or death
but i can' t choose
i swear i'll never give in
i refuse
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
has someone taken your faith?
it's real the pain you feel
you trust, you must confess
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?


has someone taken your faith?
it's real the pain you feel
the life, the love
you'd die to heal
the hope that starts the broken hearts
you trust, you must confess
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

i've got another confession my friend
i'm no fool
i'm getting tired of starting again
somewhere new
where you born to resist or be abused?
i swear i'll never give in
i refuse
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

has someone taken your faith?
it's real the pain you feel
you trust, you must confess
is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you?

wireless at "home" is nice/being sick stinks/the road to "normalcy"

it's 1:30 am Indiana time...i just got in for a weekend of family birthday celebrations. we have LOTS of March b-days in our fam...Dad, Mom, big sis, and 3 nephews all with March b-days. now that people are scattered about, we pick a weekend for everyone to come together to celebrate them all. anyhoo, getting in so late is usually a drag bacause i'm a night owl and everyone else goes to bed pretty early. however, dad FINALLY installed a wireless router last time i was home so i can play on my laptop and keep myself entertained until i am ready to go to bed.

this evening i shall back track blog a little...since i've been absent due to sickness.

so i was hella sick for about 5 days before i got to go to the doctor, but god bless antibiotics because, 10 days of amoxicillin and a week of normal sleep later, i'm feeling MUCH better! still not 100% back to "normal"--being gone to a conference for work over a weekend and having to catch up with missed work when you get back will do that to you--but i'm on the road there, which feels GREAT!

other than getting over sickness, i've also been feeling more peppy now that the sun is beginning to shine more frequently. i get to feeling SO moody and gloomy during the winter months that once the sun begins to stick around more in early to mid March...it's almost euphoric. i'm more productive, i have more energy...i'm really beginning to think that i need to move somewhere where the sun has more of a year round presence. location suggestions welcomed.

it's times like this that i dream of going back to Maui. i visited Maui last summer with two of my best girlfriends...it was spectacular! here's a sample of the spectacularness:


nice, huh?!?!

well, it's getting late and i need to get some rest if i'm going to have energy for family time tomorrow.

goodnight moon, goodnight air, goodnight noises everywhere :)