Painting by my brother-in-law Oren Goppertwhy is it that, whenever an emotional "snafoo" occurs between two people, being ready to apologize for certain behavior and being able to accept an apology never quite line up? it feels like a big joke that the universe is playing us...like the pain of the ordeal that we originally went through wasn't enough, the universe needs to get that last little jab in once we have come to terms with our own junk and are trying to make peace with the one(s) we hurt. ridiculous i say, just plain ridiculous!
i got to the point where i had grown enough to realize that i needed to apologize, i formulated and executed a sincere and heartfelt apology, and now i have to be ok with simply having said my peace...? no acknowledgment or acceptance from the apologized-to-party? ugh...people are just too confusing; why was i ever interested in psychology?
on the other hand, i keep trying to "let go of" someone from my past, but every time i'm just about to the point where this person stops showing up on my radar, something happens that pulls this person back into focus...an email/a dream/a facebook post.
my friend Sari experienced the same thing recently and this is what she had to say on the matter, "You bounce thoughts out into the universe and eventually it bounces them back to you... It's like a giant universal tennis match."
how ironic that zero points in tennis is called "love."
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